It's No Carousel Ride...

So few years back... when few shoreline peeps were hangin' out in a warm meridian apt, one of the kids suddenly had a random thought n thinkin' it out loud:

"Can u actually imagine Joy having a kid?"

And there was a long... silent...awkward pause for few seconds.
Then they all burst into laughter... like, literally rollin' on the floor kinda laughs.
My reaction when I heard that? I also laughed.

Not to say anything, but those who knows me best, they'd know that I'm not the most Maternal person in the whole world. Those who know me'd know that..

1. I'm a workaholic. Love makin $$. Been workin from Freshman year at Arby's, till recently as Project Manager @ World Vision.
2. I'm an extreme people person.
3. I had million of things goin on in my head at once..mostly about ppl, maybe caused by fact #2
4. I'm a little ADD, maybe caused by #3
5. I'm clumsy, maybe caused by #4 (well I improved...a bit... a lot...maybe).
6. I can't handle expensive items with care...maybe caused by fact #5.
7. I laugh too much, esp. at myself due to my own silly random things, maybe caused by all of the above.

So having that said... holding a baby, n raising him up to be a city hero is...well.. a bit of a challenge for me. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love LOVE LOVE this adorable smiley little guy that I'm holding in my hands now with all my heart...I'm literally his #1 fan. Well maybe #2 after my hubby, he's a fanatic. But let's just say that now I fall under that EGR people. (EGR= Extra Grace Required).

One thing I hold on to, is my Dad's promise that say: "My ways are perfect!" Psalms 18:30 "As for God, His way is perfect". He said He knows what He's doin n He'll never leave me alone. So I trust Him on that. :) Plus I got a pretty solid back up here.. a great, over-the-top, emotional-anchor, bottle-washing, diaper-changing, super-dad hubby.

One thing for sure, from now on... it's not gonna be a carousel ride for us where it's peaceful, predictable, n full of happy la-la songs. It's safe and steady....you know exactly where you're goin, (well....around).

It doesn't need guts to ride a carousel.

For us, Baby E's gonna send us off into a Roller Coaster ride, where life's turn can't really be predicted. Once we're on top, and the next second we're dropping down like mad causing thousands of butterflies drizzle in our stomach. We'd scream, we'd laugh out loud... sometimes we'll be extremely dizzy and sometimes it cause severe vomiting and diarrhea, (HAHA)
but hey.... overall, Roller Coaster Ride is FUN!

That's why most adults line up for Space Mountain, not Dumbo the flyin elephant.
They're in for the thrill.
They're in for the excitement....that hint of mystery of not knowing what's next.
They're in for the adrenaline rush.

As long as we put on the right "safety belt", then we'll be fine.

So..buckle up, n let's enjoy the ride... :)